WEEKLY THOUGHTS #13

It’s Friday, and I know I was committed to posting every Tuesday to prove to you and the world that I can commit to something like this. Something bigger and something I can have as a solid stone in my head that will be there. Always. Unfortunately, this is the reality. My working schedule changed tremendously since I began working in a new company. I have so many thoughts right now that I don’t know how to continue….hmm..let me breathe.

One BIG INHALE - one BIG EXHALE - one BIG INHALE - one BIG EXHALE.

I am still waking up at 5 AM. I am still getting out of bed, putting yoga clothes on myself, going to the next room, and starting the routine and doing the stretching, workout, taking a shower and having breakfast. So, what changed? Time. The time got filled up with work.

I am starting my work at 8:20 each day. My lunch breaks have 30 minutes, which is enough for going to the kitchen, putting the food in the microwave, eating it very fast and then going back to work. I do overtime. Most of days, one more hour. It does not seem a lot, you may say, conclude. It’s a lot for me. I feel pushed to be there but I have to remember that the one who is pushing is me. As I said earlier, I am not very much company material, and not an extremely social person so staying in an open-space office for 5 days per week 9 hours a day is quite stressful. But this is the reality. This is my reality that I have right now. You know, I want to be real, I want to be honest and I don’t want to post articles with headers: “How to become extremely successful in 30 days.” I don’t want to be like that, it does not suit me. I want to be fair. Fari for all the people because what is making me so helpless is that when I come across someone who is very successful it is sometimes like they have a magic formula. Wing wing and everything is great. That is not the reality! This is the reality.

If you want to succeed, you need to sacrifice, you need to dedicate, you need to be patient and you need to give yourself permission for making mistakes, and take your time. Being successful is difficult. It is hard cold work. It is like you are trying to sculpt a beautiful body into marble. But you are a beginner! You have no clue which tools to use, how much pressure you need to apply, or how to keep it in a perfect way that in the end, it will be just what you want. We all need to learn all those little tiny details about the marble, about the tools, about ourselves that will lead us towards a beautiful sculpture that we’ll be proud of in some time.

Let’s be more patient, let’s be more kind to ourselves. I believe that I need to do the same right now because I have to preach what I teach.

Take care.

Love & hugs,

ZlatkaK